As most of you know, I'm enlisting in 14th September.

Aside from that, PES B L1 proves that I have a slim chance of getting a part-time posting.

Which means, not as much time to serve God.

Which also means, not as much time to spend with the people I love.

Feeling emotional, I spoke to God.

God said to me that He will be with me when I go in, but I didn't get the answer I wanted.

I mean come on, He knows I wanted an 8-5 duty. I've been praying for it since the beginning.

All I got was His assuring peace, but you know, sometimes assurance is not enough.

Till I got what He meant through today's sermon.

That's His double mention and I was doubly blown away.

Matthew 5:13-16

Oh yes, engage the world.

Which means, engage the friends I'm going to make in army.

Which also means, no slacking or downgrading myself, and thus my testimony in God.

Which basically means, CHIONG. Yeah, you heard me.

Forget seeing specialists to try and down-PES.

Forget ideas of reporting sick and attending B or C.

Forget thoughts of injuring myself (I'm joking, HAHA).

I'm seriously going to miss the people I love back in church.

But to think about it, let's say I can have all the time in the world with them...

... what gain do I have if I leave behind in my camp those who have yet to know God?

The best way to lead is by example.

I think I can say so much about evangelism and incubation, but I can do much more.

I think I can say so much about being a great testimony, but I can show how to.

I think I can say so much about being real and relevant, but I can be an example.

I think I can say so much about having stature and favour, but I can affluence to influence.

Actions do speak louder than words. Doers, not just hearers.

Yes, I hear You Dad, and I'm going to do You proud.

Please take care of E8, let them be more dependent on You and more connected to pastors.

Please take care of my education, let me be able to get my BBA degree fast despite this delay.

Please take care of my spouse whom I have yet to meet or realise (NO ONE IS TO COMMENT LOL).

I'm going to be the example You've called me to be.

I'm going to shine Your light before all ranks and positions, that they may see and glorify You.

I'm going to show how real You are through how real I am...

... though as a Christian among all who are badly perceived by the world, I'm going to be different.

I'm willing. I'm prepared. I'm ready.

Use me. Take all of me.

This is the dream You've planted in my heart.

This is the dream where titles and numbers are almost irrelevant compared to loving the lost.

This is the dream where we can live without having the seven un-Christian habits.

This is the dream where I'm going to live for You in reality.

This, is the reality dream.