It's my faith.

No I'm not taking any breaks.

I'll take it all and God will take me all.

Gabriel can do it.

Gabriel is a leader of 60.

Gabriel is a leader of 3 CEGs.

Gabriel is a reproducer of many more CGLs.

Gabriel is a good live feed director.

Gabriel has great directing and camera skills.

Gabriel is a good IC.

Gabriel is a good student from PGSM.

Gabriel is a university graduate with a BBA in BTMICE.

Gabriel is in control and on top of everything.

Gabriel has a great capacity.

Gabriel is spiritual and anointed.

Gabriel is strong in prayer.

Gabriel can prophesy things that will come to past in God's power and will.

Alright, Gabriel is done.

Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns

Honestly I have to admit, with a feeling of guilt, I forgot about it.

I was impacted, I felt God's power, His peace, when Pastor Lia prayed for me.

"Fresh oil... Open your hands and receive it..." something along that line...

Well, now I remember, clearly.

Fresh oil, new anointing. It's coming to past.

I thank God for understanding so much more.

I thank God for the ability to relate.

I thank God for revelations and convictions.

I thank God even for bad times then and now.

I thank God for them whom I've hated, and learnt to love.

God, thank You for this new anointing.

I receive it, and I will not take it for granted again.

Even You didn't take it away from me when I did, but You still chose to work through me.

If You wouldn't give up on me, You wouldn't give up on them.

This is a whole deeper revelation.

How it doesn't matter what people think and say about you...

How it's wrong to judge people by what you see and hear...

You'll never know what people are going through by such, and drawing fast conclusions wouldn't make the situation better...

If you really think about it, character issues and big mistakes don't destroy a person.

But the aftermath breaks even the toughest of hearts...

The aftermath?

When it's worse than having no one who understands, but seemingly having everyone who misunderstands...

Misunderstandings are worse than stumbling blocks...

(Well, perhaps they are the hills from which these blocks break and fall off from)

So about judging people? You choose whether to or not from your own convictions...

But before you do, think twice...

Yes, I posted at 5.49am.

Night guys.

But I don't believe in luck. Hand me back my sword and I'm ready to fight another day.

I will still love You.

I will not give up.

I don't know what to do. But You know.

Yes Lord, You're in control.

I don't know any more. Guide me.

Comfort me like only You can.

Give me strength to go on.

My mind's still set, my vision's still clear.

20 is still the number.

So is 60.

Jolie! Satisfied?

Really I can't remember what I wrote! LOL. Enjoy!

You spoke Your Word

Night turned into day

Your beauty filled this place

When my world stood in silence

You filled my heart

With songs that never end

Forever I will praise

To think that the universe

Could not withhold Your glory

You choose to live in me

I'm so amazed

And I worship You Lord

Here is my heart

Make it Your sanctuary

For nobody else

But Jesus only

You

You are faithful and true

Glorious Lord

You've touched my soul

Completed my world

But I'm really not. It's been a while since it happened and I'm long over it.

I've made decisions already and I know what to do.

So I really don't need consolation... I mean I really appreciate it, I'm really encouraged by your tags... But I just want you guys to know that I'm all well and don't need this much sympathy.

Really, I'm really really okay. Haha.

Oh yeah, and today's new song really ministered to my heart.

It's called Today...

Lord, You've got me here in Heart of God Church.

I'm Yours for life.

No more running wild. I'll keep going, and I'll get it right.

I'm no longer a student in TP. Yup, it's for good now. I didn't make it in my supps, so I'm out. Thus, my TP friends, when you guys head back to school on Monday, you won't be seeing me around any more. It's true.

There isn't any explanation, simply just because I didn't pass my supps. I would gladly tell you why... I was complacent and thought I'd pass, thus I wasn't prepared and flunked my papers. I admit that, because even leaders are humans who make mistakes in life, and I'm just one of the many. Mine just happen to seem like the biggest blow to many people... Not that it wasn't to me, but I'm over it.

My greatest concern was how people would look at me... Dropped out of SR, then in Poly... Now out of Poly with nothing at hand... I doubted a while if I should still be a leader in church, especially when this part of my life is something I don't want anyone to follow me in. I know for sure also, that there'll definitely be people who'll size me up as a failure in school. "You're not even a polytechnic student, and you're talking to me about priorities?"

I wouldn't start hating such people, but just that I won't be able to lead or even click with such people. So if you're such a person and you're a friend of mine, I'm sorry, I don't think we'll get along as time goes by. I will still love you, but if I'm not respected as who I really am, not that I'll need it... But it'll definitely be hard to understand each other.

I'm not intimidated. I will STILL be a leader. In fact, while I was crying out to God wondering why this happened to me, I've got a revelation of why I'm a leader. I've noticed and found myself relating to people who, either they are quite shunned and neglected by society because they are not very socially apt, or their vision and dreams for God are close to dying after facing problems like these... Or even now, people who've been judged and sized up by others because of their lesser qualifications.

1 Corinthians 1:26-31

Habbakuk 3:2-4

These were the verses that ministered to me when I faced all these problems... Neglected because I didn't have favour with people, rejected when my dreams died, and now possibly judged when I'm a dropout. If you're one of such, I'm here for you my friend. Talk to me :) (hmm, in fact I'm quite free now that I have no school, haha)

But that's why I can relate to people who face such struggles in life. Whether a leader or a friend, I think I'm called to share my testimony and inspire people to believe again... That it is still possible for them, that they still have opportunities, that they still can rise to their purpose... That they can dream all over again if they need to...

All things are possible with God. God doesn't look at titles, positions, qualifications, skills, abilities, talents, charisma etc.... God looks at heart, character, attitude and spirit. I believe if any one of you have that... You may be from Uni, JC, Poly, ITE, Secondary School and no matter how bad your situation in life may be, God has a purpose and a hope for you. There is a clause however: ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE. So O Level students, STUDY HARD AND DO WELL. HAHA. Glorify God in your studies because you still have the chance and you can.

I was eccentric, hyperactive, immature and insensitive, but God changed me to be relational, understanding and have favour...

I was walking without direction and my vision dying, but God revived my dream and now I know my purpose...

If God did it for me, I'm not afraid to take more challenges... Bring on this one, I'll show you how powerful my God is. I'll take it to the max; My vision before I enter the army at the end of next year is that I can rise up and lead 60 people, which is at least 3 cell groups. But more than just the number, the title, the vision... I want to inspire more people who were like me, that nothing is impossible for them when they have God.

And of course, I'm going to sign up for PGSM. I'll make sure this time round before the nation requires me, I'll graduate with a diploma from PGSM. No more complacency, no more lifeguards, no more nets. I'll make it. I'll make sure. Enough of the words, I'll do it.

And I can. 60 people, 3 CEGs... Seems far-fetched, but I've made it known to God. And I felt His peace.

Besides, I'll grow E Zone if I can do that. HAHA. I'm building the church!

Thanks for reading guys.

Ps. If you've been asking me for a very long time to teach you guitar, well I'm really very free now! :) My apologies, I wasn't very focussed when all these were happening. HAHA. But arrange a day man! I still have a life!

Just look at him. No hands, no legs.

Yet, no limits. He became just like everyone of us.

He became as able as all of us.

So touched and inspired by him.

Well, if the video's not enough, you can hear him speak this coming November!

Here are the details!

Yup, it's being held at my church, so for more information and details, feel free to tag or add me on MSN (leesweekeat@hotmail.com).

Also, you can check out his website at http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.com/ or watch some of his awesome videos on YouTube.

All are welcomed! Don't miss this for the world!

Grab your friends with you and hear his amazing story, from no limbs to no limits.

I shall see you there! :)

2. Timing

E20, let's do it.

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.

To me, it feels like the end.

But to God, it seems like the beginning of fruitfulness.

I believe.

I won't back down.

Reproduction in the spirit.

Until I realise I'm in many ways like them.

Now I'm learning to love them :)

Hold on, no matter what...

(lol.)

I am a Christian first, then a leader.

I'm still Christian, and a Christian is still human.

Of course, as leaders we've got to be blameless.

But not sinless. Not perfect.

We do pursue holiness and perfection. But we can never be perfect.

I've decided and I don't care anymore if I am misunderstood, disrespected, don't feel comfortable with this and that etc.

It's no longer I, but Christ who lives in me.

One day I'll learn from my mistakes, in fact I would now.

One day people will get it.

Till then, it's not so much about my thoughts and feelings, but others.

I just love to see people's lives touched, impacted, changed, growing in God, rising up etc.

And I love it even more to be able to be a channel of God's work for that to happen, whether or not as a leader, a friend, a brother or just a small opportunity.

Long time since I ever had a good talk with Yang.

Talked the whole night until 7am. LOL. Slept like pigs until 12pm.

More than the craps and the di xiao-ing each other...

More than talking about how Man Utd thrashed AaB...

I'm glad our friendship is built upon the foundation of such deep and spiritual things.

Well, if you thought that was good, just walking out of church to the cab Garrett flagged was even more powerful.

I love Garrett to the max. How I wish I can come on staff. Or maybe not, but just be in the office more often.

Be around Garrett more often and just receive this much from him.

If a 5-minute exit journey can do so much, I don't mind moving to the west just to take the same train home.

I was just so blown away.

Really, it's all about building people. The mundane, the tedious, the routine...

But it's more than just doing the job and going through the motion.

It is really the slow process of building.

It took my pastors and leaders 5 years to build me to who I am today. Not that everyone will take that same amount of time.

But everyone needs to be built to be who they want to be.

I'm inspired and willing to build the people around me as much as I can.

Brick by brick.

Because at the end of the day, can you build another you in your CG the same way you were built?

I know things will get better from here. I just know it.

I'm going to make sure history doesn't repeat twice.

I'm going to make sure that I breakthrough to levels where I've never gone before.

I'm going to make sure that I rise up to greater heights in God before I enter the army.

This, my responsibility

No matter what happens to me, I will still build this church because this church built me.

I will still build the House of the God who built me to who I am today.

Heart of God Church.

E Zone.

E2.

E20.

Brick by brick.

We will breakthrough.