 THE PROTOTYPE 220389 I'm just like you THE LIVE ACTION LEESWEEKEAT THE BITTERSWEET MOMENTS March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 THE REAL WORLD Aaron Cheong Adriena Amandal Annlynn Anthony Benedict Bryan Caiman Carol Chek Yeow Chi Chi Beng Dexter Dinnie Dominic Douglas Evangeline Evi Fion Furong Garrett Grismond Hong Rui Huili Iris Ivan Ivy Jamie Jaslyn Jasmine Jasmin Jeannette Jeremy Quek Jia Yang Jian Hong Jian Ming Joanna Joanne Johnny Jolie Josh Joy Keegan Kenneth Leon Lester Li Yue Liane Lucinda Mark Maryse May Melisa Melvin Miaow Guan Michelle Cheng Michelle Yao Ming Han Minting Mong Nadine Natalia Noni Peck Hoon Qi Wei Ranford Ryan Kumar Sharyl Stella Tommy Valerie Cheong Vanessa Chan Vanessa Han Weijie Wendy Lee Wendy Neo Xinjie Xueli Yan Rui Yan Yun Yassy Yechin Zhuo Xinyi Zoe
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Monday, January 5, 2009 @ 3:01 AM
vulnerable Yes, I am willing to be vulnerable again. I've learnt that it is so much more tiring to be selfish than to be selfless... To dislike than to love... To resist than to obey... To run away than to confront... In every situation the latter may make us weary, but it takes a lot more to do otherwise, especially mentally and spiritually. Today's meeting with Garrett was awesome... Personally, I felt touched. More than just a point proven, it totally impacted me... Many reasons, many thoughts... That feeling is back... The feeling of how urgent we should be about people... The feeling of how tight and faithful we must be in the things we do... The feeling of reinforcement in every small detail... I don't know why, but I haven't felt that in a long time. Now I do, and I don't feel pressured by it... Instead, I feel more encouraged to go for it... Like Pastor Lia said, it's the Ethos... This is the Ethos of being hardworking and detailed again... More than that, I feel inspired to just lay aside those little irritating and frustrating thoughts I've been having... "Teeth gritted, hands on the plough." That's what I've been trying to do, and I just got the motivation to do it. No longer about how I feel, what I think, what about me... No longer I, but Christ in me... Even if I feel disrespected, mistreated, neglected, out of favour, out of place, out of reach, out of sight, out of whatever... I will remember Garrett telling us that "if we feel we aren't good enough, instead of retreating and accepting it, we make ourselves good enough"! I felt so this way when problems came... When I got chucked out of JC and Poly, when nobody seemed to be there when it happened... I'm still going to be a real man and overcome my fears and discouragements... I'm going to be big. I'm going to be a real man. I'm going to be bigger than every single problem that used to bother and irritate me... Well, in some ways these problems have grown me, but now it's time to grow bigger than them and get rid of them. I can. Change is possible. I can change. I can make things happen. I will grow stronger. I will be reinforced by God. I will grow. I will breakthrough. I will arise. The old Gabriel is back. (probably, just the good parts, hehe) 2009. Year of breakthroughs. Role models. Arise. Burden. Bold. Blameless. Breakthrough. Ten times better. |