I think I'm being a bit too honest on my blog...

Showing how I got kicked out of school...

Talking about how I have not been myself...

Saying about how mundane my life has been...

Well, it's MY blog! Haha. I say what I want to say and I'm being very real. As long as I don't stumble people, yes, welcome to my life. If I don't be honest, then please don't read my blog. Because it's really not me! Haha.

Anyway, this week was part of God's plan. Yes, I made the wrong choices, bad decisions... But God knew I was going to... And God prepared a redemptive plan for me (I guess, that was talking to Quek!). HAHA.

Gaah... Sometimes maybe I think too much... Too much until I miss out how much my pastors and leaders love me. Like Wendy said, I am not simple as I think I am. And only today I realise, that's what makes me who I am, right? If I am so simple, I will never get to understand complicated people like how I can now. But that doesn't mean simple people can't understand complicated people... I am a simple person (just not VERY simple), but I can understand complicated people because I can think and feel like one. It's a gift! Like Dr. A.R. Bernard said... LOL.

Ok to the point. I don't have to try to be someone else!

Because God loves me for who I am... People love me for who I am too!

Pastors love me...

My leaders love me...

My zone mates and my CG loves me...

Even you love me... (YOU BETTER DO! HAHA!)

And why does everybody love Gabriel? Because Gabriel is Gabriel! Haha, ok I shall not talk in such egoistic ways. But I realise, I am accepted in Heart of God church, loved by people in church, included, believed in, raised up... It was because of the person I uniquely was that pastors and my leaders saw potential... That there could only be one me, with the character and strengths I had... And God knew about the scars that I was going to have!

I felt so honoured when Wendy shared with me about such a perspective and image they had of me. I understand so much more now.

How my pastors and leaders think and feel, especially about me...

How even many people think and feel, which I never understood in the past...

Sometimes we make wrong decisions in life...

But never give up, never lose faith...

Because even through your down seasons, God is with you...

God planned it...

And most of the time, God is helping you understand yourself better...

God is giving you insight of yourself...

That you will understand your hindsight and why your past happened...

And then realise your foresight, your vision, your calling, your destiny...

E Zone restructure... Good or bad? I don't think that matters.

But I can assure you, each and every one of you...

That all these changes are in God's plans.

That is what matters.

Insight. Hindsight. Foresight.

No wonder I'm called to preach. LOL. Ok sleep, good night.