I'm no longer a student in TP. Yup, it's for good now. I didn't make it in my supps, so I'm out. Thus, my TP friends, when you guys head back to school on Monday, you won't be seeing me around any more. It's true.

There isn't any explanation, simply just because I didn't pass my supps. I would gladly tell you why... I was complacent and thought I'd pass, thus I wasn't prepared and flunked my papers. I admit that, because even leaders are humans who make mistakes in life, and I'm just one of the many. Mine just happen to seem like the biggest blow to many people... Not that it wasn't to me, but I'm over it.

My greatest concern was how people would look at me... Dropped out of SR, then in Poly... Now out of Poly with nothing at hand... I doubted a while if I should still be a leader in church, especially when this part of my life is something I don't want anyone to follow me in. I know for sure also, that there'll definitely be people who'll size me up as a failure in school. "You're not even a polytechnic student, and you're talking to me about priorities?"

I wouldn't start hating such people, but just that I won't be able to lead or even click with such people. So if you're such a person and you're a friend of mine, I'm sorry, I don't think we'll get along as time goes by. I will still love you, but if I'm not respected as who I really am, not that I'll need it... But it'll definitely be hard to understand each other.

I'm not intimidated. I will STILL be a leader. In fact, while I was crying out to God wondering why this happened to me, I've got a revelation of why I'm a leader. I've noticed and found myself relating to people who, either they are quite shunned and neglected by society because they are not very socially apt, or their vision and dreams for God are close to dying after facing problems like these... Or even now, people who've been judged and sized up by others because of their lesser qualifications.

1 Corinthians 1:26-31

Habbakuk 3:2-4

These were the verses that ministered to me when I faced all these problems... Neglected because I didn't have favour with people, rejected when my dreams died, and now possibly judged when I'm a dropout. If you're one of such, I'm here for you my friend. Talk to me :) (hmm, in fact I'm quite free now that I have no school, haha)

But that's why I can relate to people who face such struggles in life. Whether a leader or a friend, I think I'm called to share my testimony and inspire people to believe again... That it is still possible for them, that they still have opportunities, that they still can rise to their purpose... That they can dream all over again if they need to...

All things are possible with God. God doesn't look at titles, positions, qualifications, skills, abilities, talents, charisma etc.... God looks at heart, character, attitude and spirit. I believe if any one of you have that... You may be from Uni, JC, Poly, ITE, Secondary School and no matter how bad your situation in life may be, God has a purpose and a hope for you. There is a clause however: ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE. So O Level students, STUDY HARD AND DO WELL. HAHA. Glorify God in your studies because you still have the chance and you can.

I was eccentric, hyperactive, immature and insensitive, but God changed me to be relational, understanding and have favour...

I was walking without direction and my vision dying, but God revived my dream and now I know my purpose...

If God did it for me, I'm not afraid to take more challenges... Bring on this one, I'll show you how powerful my God is. I'll take it to the max; My vision before I enter the army at the end of next year is that I can rise up and lead 60 people, which is at least 3 cell groups. But more than just the number, the title, the vision... I want to inspire more people who were like me, that nothing is impossible for them when they have God.

And of course, I'm going to sign up for PGSM. I'll make sure this time round before the nation requires me, I'll graduate with a diploma from PGSM. No more complacency, no more lifeguards, no more nets. I'll make it. I'll make sure. Enough of the words, I'll do it.

And I can. 60 people, 3 CEGs... Seems far-fetched, but I've made it known to God. And I felt His peace.

Besides, I'll grow E Zone if I can do that. HAHA. I'm building the church!

Thanks for reading guys.

Ps. If you've been asking me for a very long time to teach you guitar, well I'm really very free now! :) My apologies, I wasn't very focussed when all these were happening. HAHA. But arrange a day man! I still have a life!