 THE PROTOTYPE 220389 I'm just like you THE LIVE ACTION LEESWEEKEAT THE BITTERSWEET MOMENTS March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 THE REAL WORLD Aaron Cheong Adriena Amandal Annlynn Anthony Benedict Bryan Caiman Carol Chek Yeow Chi Chi Beng Dexter Dinnie Dominic Douglas Evangeline Evi Fion Furong Garrett Grismond Hong Rui Huili Iris Ivan Ivy Jamie Jaslyn Jasmine Jasmin Jeannette Jeremy Quek Jia Yang Jian Hong Jian Ming Joanna Joanne Johnny Jolie Josh Joy Keegan Kenneth Leon Lester Li Yue Liane Lucinda Mark Maryse May Melisa Melvin Miaow Guan Michelle Cheng Michelle Yao Ming Han Minting Mong Nadine Natalia Noni Peck Hoon Qi Wei Ranford Ryan Kumar Sharyl Stella Tommy Valerie Cheong Vanessa Chan Vanessa Han Weijie Wendy Lee Wendy Neo Xinjie Xueli Yan Rui Yan Yun Yassy Yechin Zhuo Xinyi Zoe
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Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 2:12 AM
Change! (Yes, again) I think many would wonder what happened to all my previous posts. Well, I just cleared them. I don't know why. After changing my blog skin, I think they look very messy here. Oh well, outdated anyway, although some were quite powerful and some I still love a lot, let's move on with life. I went shopping today at Far East... "Whaaaa...? Pardon?" Yes, my friend, Gabriel went S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G. Something new? Get used to it man! Lots of things are going to change around here. Let's just say I'm growing older okay? Maturing and doing more things myself! Haha! For your info, I'm 19 this coming March. 22nd. REMEMBER OKAY? =D Anyway, just a thought that is still in my mind since I was still walking around the shops of that rundown Far East Plaza this evening... I think I've changed a lot. Not the usual change, not another story of how I'm moulded and how much I've grown though it'll be great... But really, I've not only changed, but been through change after change after change. Ever heard of advices coming from people, telling you to be yourself? But how! How to be myself when I don't know myself. I don't know who I really am, what I really like... At some point I will, yet at some point I realise I don't really do... My tastes go from sweet to sour, my interests are all over the place, my favourite colour changes with the temperature... Who am I!? A chameleon perhaps... But you know what? I love it! I don't want to change this. If there's one thing in my life that I don't want to change, it is that I don't want to stop changing. "Huh!?" My point is, I don't want to stop changing! I don't like to be the same. I don't want to grow old being the same person for the next 20 years. I'm happy to look back at all the years of my life, and know that I've changed not just since the day of my salvation, but many other times in my life. I'm not the same this year compared to last year, and I wasn't the same last year compared to the year before, and so on... And I just love it! How boring would life be if you look back at your life and realise you've been the same person, liking everything the same for the past 10 years... Nothing changed, not even interests, not even tastes... You like the same thing over and over again... No new likings, no new found strengths, nothing new at all... BOREDOM! Or maybe it's just me? Maybe I'm just unsettled with my own interests, my own likings... People may find it irritating because I may be unpredictable and indecisive. People may even find me weird! Hard to get me a gift eh? Haha! Well, I don't want that either, and I'll change... But there you go! CHANGE! Don't you have to change too in order to grow? Thus at the same time where I learn to be more in momentum and routines, more predictable as a person, more decisive... I want to be more adaptable, more teachable, more and more willing to change in my heart, thinking, and everything else, even the smallest likes and dislikes... Because I want my value system to match God's! Don't that happen to you sometimes? =P Only a few things I can't change... I can't change God, I can't change church, I can't change pastors! We need to grow to be more like Him, doesn't that require a change? Pastors change over the years... More faithfilled, more spiritual, more anointed, more competent in the world, more loving! So does our leaders! I submit to Wendy partly because I know she has changed and grown tremendously over the years, and there's more than just having lots to learn from her! More than who she is, more than what she knows, more than the fact that she's a girl, more than the fact that I was in church before her, or was a leader before her... I am still submissive and accountable to her! Only God never changes. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. But we're no gods. We're not in control. It's not up to us in this life. It's up to Him. He wants us to change, He wants us to be different. So I'll keep changing, through the months, years, decades and until I reach the mark God has set for me, I'll never stop changing. I want more of God, I want more of Him in my life... I want to be more like Jesus! I want to learn what He loves and hates, then I want to love what He loves and hate what He hates... I want to be like my pastors and my leaders, I want to flow with them... And if it requires all the change in the world, from the biggest of character issues, to the smallest of interests, I'm willing to. So change me. Cuz I don't want to be the same. |